The following is an e-mail message that I sent to Brian Harner on January 3 2021 at 2:00AM.
I posted the e-mails, and I'm basically caught up on posting your
e-mails. All I've left out is a few short ones plus the ~3 pastebin
One more thing. A great shortcoming
here is a near-inability to imagine any possibility other than the
status quo. What I mean is, when people are adversarial, it's hard to
imagine them being anything but that. For example, when I try to imagine
your father agreeing to help you, it just strikes me as fantasy totally
uprooted from reality. It's comparable to a monkey writing
Shakespeare-- technically not impossible, but... you know. I'm not
saying I want it to be this way. I'm acknowledging that there may be a
lack of openness, on my part, towards these near-impossibilities, even
though they ought to be what I want to happen.
I just wanted to put that out there. I periodically ask myself how I need to change in any way, and that is what came to mind.