I have not posted anything to kimwrate.com since January 26 2025, and the last time I wrote about my life at all was on March 1 2024. I suppose it is time for another "Update" post.
Here, I will give a general overview of what has happened. There are several topics here which may be worthy of having their own article, whether on the Equilibrium Archive or just on this blog.
2024
The course of my life took a pretty drastic turn shortly after I wrote the last update post on March 1 2024. My boyfriend and I broke up two weeks later, on March 16 2024. We were a couple for only about 100 days. We attempted to remain friends, with the hope of eventually getting back together, until October 31 2024. We have not spoken to each other since.
I have been rather divided on whether I want to expand on this topic more, or just move on. I think the only good reason to write more about this would be transparency, so that people know I am not trying to bullshit them about any aspect of my life. Other than that, I'm not sure people would derive any value from reading my reflections on my rather uneventful love life.
On May 10 2024, I left home for good. Right around the same time, I was promoted at my full-time job. Note that, as I mentioned in the March 1 2024 post, I began working a second job on January 9 2023. In general, between the two jobs, I worked a total of 70 hours per week before overtime. I was able to keep my second job in spite of the promotion at my full-time job: I just had to change my schedule a bit.
A few solid moves were made in 2024 towards the goal of equilibrium. On June 7 2024, I added an acre of farmland to the 18 acres of forest I own. On June 29, I bought a bin of red wiggler worms from a farm in northeastern NY and began a worm farm. I used the worm castings to fertilize my new farmland. Then, on August 7 2024, I bought and moved into my first house. The house has a 1+ car garage (not quite 2 cars), and thus has plenty of room for me to work on my projects, and also do maintenance work on my vehicles.
On September 26, 2024, I took a train to Chicago, IL, and then another train to Denver, CO. On September 28, I purchased a 1998 Ford Ranger pickup truck in Longmont, CO. I then drove 500 miles to see my friend, who is also the main source of information for the Equilibrium Archive, Brian Harner. Brian and I spent the next five days working on the truck, which included taking apart and cleaning the top half of the engine, changing the extremely tight wheel bearings (who uses thread locker on wheel bearings? The previous owner, apparently.), and painting the undercarriage of the truck. I then spent 2.5 days driving 2000 miles to get back home to upstate New York.
At the end of 2024, I resolved to create a new website where the essential knowledge for attaining equilibrium could all be found in one place. That website is equilibriumism.org. I wrote about this in a post on January 26, 2025. I added to the Archive whenever I could find time, up until March 2025. Then, as you will see, the events of my life took a significant turn once again.
2025
The events of 2025 did not bring as drastic of a change for me, but I was no less active than I was in 2024. The basic overview of 2025 is that, due to a series of unfortunate events, I received another promotion at my job. At the end of March 2025, the first supervisor I had at my full-time job passed away, while he was still employed by the company. This resulted in me taking on his job, first unofficially for several months, and then officially by the end of July. The job was, and still is, demanding enough that on June 6 of 2025, after 2.5 years of working two jobs, I finally had to leave my second job. Do you think things must have gotten nice and relaxed for me after that? Think again. At the end of September 2025, exactly six months after my predecessor passed away, the gentleman who trained me to do my job, and who had served as the right-hand man to both me and predecessor, also passed away. This individual is not easy to replace. Consequently, for the last three months I have been trying to perform both his job duties and mine simultaneously, while also training replacements where possible, and I have been working more hours than I have ever worked in my life-- even more than when I had two jobs! I currently cannot foresee where this situation will realistically go.
Other than that, I have been undergoing the usual process of adding to my collection of tools, working on and learning more about my vehicles, and talking to Brian so that there is even more information to one day add to the Equilibrium Archive. On March 31 2024, Brian and I had our first phone conversation since November 9 2020. Brian and I have been talking on the phone regularly since then, and I have recorded most of our conversations. I posted most of our recorded conversations from 2020 to Bitchute, and one recording is on YouTube. I am currently uncertain where I will post these new conversations. I have somewhere between 250 and 300 recordings, and each one is anywhere between 30 minutes and 4 hours long. That's a lot of data to upload! That's also a lot of information which isn't as easy to share as a collection of e-mails. Brian and I have mostly gotten away from e-mailing since we started talking on the phone again, although we do text often. Unfortunately, text messages are also not as easy to share as e-mails. I will try to do what I can, but my personal circumstances (mainly my work hours) keep me from working on the Archive as much as I would like to.
The Present
One currently ongoing project I have not mentioned is that Brian and I plan to retrofit a carbureted truck with a gasifier, and run it on syngas. This should work well for me since I own enough wood (and by extension, leaves) to use as fuel for the rest of my life-- and much of this wood is already decomposed enough or otherwise low-quality enough that fuel is the best application it can be used for anyway. It is highly likely that the truck will be a 1970s Ford F250 with an 8ft flatbed, but this is not guaranteed. I will be sure to post about it when the time comes. The project will probably take months, so don't get too anxious waiting around for "Grandma" here to post again.
What is that last sentence about? Well, at my job, I have so much stuff to do that I sometimes call myself "Grandma." I say to the employees, "Don't worry-- Grandma will be there to help you somewhere between 30 minutes and 6 hours from now!" That pretty well sums up my outlook on my life. There is so much to do that, from an outsider's perspective, it looks like I am moving at "Grandma's" pace. Even though I am 29 years old, I might as well be 80. Don't worry, kids-- the Equilibrium Archive will get completed some time before 2030!
Speaking of outsiders' perspectives, I almost forgot to mention another project. Because I am so slow, and have had a rather minimal presence on the Internet since about 2023, Brian and I have been trying to find an individual who can help us to broadcast the message of how and why humanity needs to attain equilibrium. It is tough, because we would rather not bother technically-minded people who, though they are not quite on the "right" path, are still doing better than most others. As such, we have instead bothered people who have already put themselves out there and made themselves infamous with politically incorrect commentary. Unfortunately, so far it seems that the downfall of these individuals is their vanity. The information we have presented to them surely would tarnish the pretty public image they have created for themselves, if they were to put said information into practice. So, we have not heard anything back from these individuals so far, but in their public postings we can see personal problems building up for them. It does not bring us enjoyment to see people who dismiss us end up having problems. Quite the contrary. Anyway, I will consider eventually posting what Brian and I said to these individuals. For now, though, I will give them a bit more time to sort themselves out before possibly publicly embarrassing them.
That ought to be a good overview for 2024 and 2025. I will get back to working on the Equilibrium Archive now.